I don't know why, after all thats happened I still have positive hopes. I still dream. I shouldn't really because then, when I'm hurt i ahve no one to blame but myself.Why did i have to have such high expectations from so-and-so etc. Its always my fault isn't it? I hope for soemthing to happen. It inevitably doesn't happen. And I'm hurt. The nex day i hope for it to happen again. It doesn't and I'm more hurt. Its a vicious ongoing cycle....
Its not funny. Its so not funny.
But then when did anyone say it was?:S