So, so hurt that my fingers are clenched when they are not scratching my left wrist like a possessed being.
I want to wail, to cry, to howl and scream. I want to complain like a little child.
curl up like a baby and weep. Just to get it out of my system.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
This life is so meaningless. We idiots think with our education, our knowledge, our brains, we can accurately give life a meaning. We can define life and people around us. But we're so mistaken. We move in circles. For eternity. Just round and round inside them. Very aimless and without a destination.
When suddenly you find meaning in life, or you think you have, everything redefines itself. Its like when you're high. Your senses are sharpened. The sense of smell, taste, feel.
But its all an illusion. Its all a mirage. As soon as you approach it, it shatters into a gazillion little pieces. Leaving you alone, to pick up the shards which prick your heart with each lubb-dubb
The hurt which is in me is beyond words.
I love you..
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posted by asheyy @ 6:15 AM
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